So probably  for the last like 2 months or so I have felt lost. The hard thing is that its not anything that I can really explain or that anyone can really help me understand. The good thing is that I am learning alot about myself and mostly trying to stick to it.

I have learned that I hate it when people ignore things I tell them or things that they should already know.
My feelings matter and what I tell you about me or somethig to do with me, should be enough. Regardless of what other people feel, say or do... I am the one (besides God) who knows me the best.
Blind dates are the worst thing ever invented.
I do not encourage the people in my life as much as I should.
8 months may be too late to save a relationship.
I don't think that I can go back to the place that I was at and that scares me. I don't know what to do now!
I feel like the major things/opinions in my life need to be redefined but don't know where to start.
I bought the movie that I have detested for so long from a garage sale, but still can't bring myself to watch it.
I was asked why I hang on to the stupidest/silliest things for so long and the only answer is that I don't know!

There are many other things going on in my wee little brain, but I thought that maybe by posting some of the stuff I have figured out and some of the other thoughts might explain why my posts have been more on the serious side and sooo infrequent. My mom always said that if you don't have anything nice to say not to say anything at all; and its taken a while but I am trying to uphold to that. I am still alive and I am ok, but things have been better in life.(thats an ok thing) We go through the tough times to make the good times seem so great!